It has been so long since I have posted on here. It’s almost amazing to me how long it has taken me to get the guts up to even log in!
When we got home in October, my life went berserk! I mean, sitting in the hospital with Dude and helping him there was a struggle… but only until I got home and had to do it all on my own! The last two months have been so concentrated with events and love as well as drama and some of the lowest lows I’ve seen.
The good news is this, there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I can see it so clearly.
Through my journey I have struggled with my faith. Of course I have some, but I have been battling myself with it. I have tried so hard to just trust in the Lord to keep me strong but this whole time, I haven’t fully given up control. Until now.
A couple of days ago, I told my mom, “I think this is what rock bottom feels like” and in that same moment, the fog lifted and I saw blue skies. I spent a little while drowning in my own tears, but that’s what it took for me to let go. As strong as everyone has told me that they think I am, you’re only as strong as your relationship with the Lord, and mine was only mediocre.
I spent a good portion of my night last night talking to one of my very best friends, and it’s because of him and his courage that I have this new found excitement about God. His courage and strength to see the other side of the fence has brought me great pain… and great clarification at the same time.
It’s funny because people say that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle but I’m living proof that God gives you enough to realize that you need Him in your life to help you along the way. It’s easy to handle even the most trying times and even death when you have Him to lift you up and take on your troubles.
I have a WONDERFUL support system in my friends and family for when I lose my way. I pray that my situation can inspire others and show them the truth of pure happiness. I hope that in my journey to forgiveness, happiness, faith and all things good… that maybe you all will benefit also.
NOW, with that said.. I am going to be working on my blog a little bit. Of course I will be keeping my updates on Dominic (who is doing SO fantastic) but will also include some of my knowledge of the beauty world, and some of my new findings on faith, health, food, and all things home-y. I am so excited about this new beginning, and I can’t wait to share it all with you!
Thank you all for being there for me and giving me the safety net that you have become. I have friends made of pure gold!
I’m back and we are going to make this life, the best one.